Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Giving Up - Not an Option

Have you every just wanted to give up? Give in to what others believe and toss your own thoughts or beliefs out the window? Today I felt like crap and the worst of it all, I am soley responsible for how I felt. Tonight the Pastor continued his teaching on James and tonight was all about controlling our tongue, how it can be used for good or for destruction. I've been working hard on trying not to give into "knee jerk" reactions, be quiet listen and then speak. It's really quite simple but not that simple to do because of the human nature of external forces. That's a test that if not prepared for can really cause a lot of grief for all involved.

So here I am, at a crossroad, should I go this way or that way? David came to a crossroad, and took a wrong path and suffered the consequences for his choice. and he was a man after God's own heart. So what's the difference between David and I? I love God with all my heart, sole and mind. I do my best to love others as I love myself and put the needs of others before my own. So then this should be simple, right?

Well I guess we shall see in the next coming days. all I know and cam be assured of, is that I won't be alone!

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Fifty Two First Days of Spring

What is it about this time of year that wakes me up from the fog I have been in for the last several months? I air has a certain "feel" to it that makes me open up all my windows! I love to sit on my back porch and listen to the wind chimes tinkle in the breeze, watch the birds fly from tree to tree and most of give thanks that I get another day to bask in God's glory.

When others are clean sweeping their houses, I chose to sweep the cobwebs out of my head to make room for new things, like making new relationships, which is a little scary for me, but so far God has kept HIS promise that no harm would come to me. HIS love is unconditional and as Luther reminded us this morning, HE had us in mind when HE gave it all, that we would be with HIM in heaven the very next second we took our last breath on this world. Until today I wanted to be able to choose the way I died, which would be from old age, but now, I want to live for HIM. I want to live my life so that others will see HIM in me.

Today is a very special day indeed for me, other than the dusting off of the cobwebs. First of all, I have been married to my love for Twenty Seven years. I can't imagine what we were thinking, but I am thankful that God has watched over us these past years. We have been through some rough times, but God prevailed. We have been through some great times, but God prevailed. But we have been through them together. God also blessed us with two great kids, well they are young adults now.

It was baby dedication at chuch this morning. There were several babies that were dedicated this morning, two of which were very special to our hearts. Something about babies just makes everything wonderful especially when you have know them since birth! It reminds me of God's promise to us from Hannah.

A very special couple that we have adopted, joined the church today. My heart just overflows! I love them very much and I know that God has great things for them. The wife is soon to be baptized which will bring tears of joy to my eyes! We love them so and cannot wait to see what God will do in their lives as they open their hearts to HIM.

Just when you think God is through blessing you, He does something so unexpected for our human nature to comprehend. Thank you Jesus for saving me, for loving me through my failures, for blessing me when I don't feel worthy of any blessing, and for being faithful and true to your promises!